April 30, 2010
hammy died...
-nIx- @ [[11:50 PM]]
hammy died...
-nIx- @ [[11:50 PM]]
April 29, 2010
Super tired lying in bed wondering why I couldn't fall asleep at 3am and getting irritated by the hamster squeaking away. Then I realised I had iced cafe latte at 6pm.
Can't believe that coffee lasts that long. On the other hand, it probably still works on me since I hardly drink coffee.
Super drained now, gonna sleep!
-nIx- @ [[11:56 PM]]
Super tired lying in bed wondering why I couldn't fall asleep at 3am and getting irritated by the hamster squeaking away. Then I realised I had iced cafe latte at 6pm.
Can't believe that coffee lasts that long. On the other hand, it probably still works on me since I hardly drink coffee.
Super drained now, gonna sleep!
-nIx- @ [[11:56 PM]]
April 27, 2010
Never felt so sleepy. Accomplished lots today (study wise), although could have been better had my mind not been caught up with . . . . .
And to make things worse, I think its the same day I dropped my road tax souvenir. Coincidence or fate?
Anyway, too tired to think of that. Plus I've got something even more puzzling to figure out. Good night!
-nIx- @ [[12:17 AM]]
Never felt so sleepy. Accomplished lots today (study wise), although could have been better had my mind not been caught up with . . . . .
And to make things worse, I think its the same day I dropped my road tax souvenir. Coincidence or fate?
Anyway, too tired to think of that. Plus I've got something even more puzzling to figure out. Good night!
-nIx- @ [[12:17 AM]]
April 26, 2010
I feel like part of me is being ripped away. Sad.
Baby repsol got sold last week!
Can't believe I still feel a little attached to the one thing that I've given up almost half a year ago. But at least it doesn't feel as bad as when I first made the decision to sell it.
Just feeling sad, but at least I'm not crying.
Well anyway, kinda expected it from someone who treated it as transport rather than value it for its design. Safety first I guess.
Byebye baby repsol, I miss you!
-nIx- @ [[11:01 AM]]
I feel like part of me is being ripped away. Sad.
Baby repsol got sold last week!
Can't believe I still feel a little attached to the one thing that I've given up almost half a year ago. But at least it doesn't feel as bad as when I first made the decision to sell it.
Just feeling sad, but at least I'm not crying.
Well anyway, kinda expected it from someone who treated it as transport rather than value it for its design. Safety first I guess.
Byebye baby repsol, I miss you!
-nIx- @ [[11:01 AM]]
April 24, 2010
Today has been a really long long day.
Woke up at 10 to have my breakfast and off we go (parents and me) for a facial and massage. Definitely much better than my current one, which I am about to finish the package. Don't intend to sign up for it again anyway.
Well yeah. Now my back is feeling much better and less tensed up. After that we had to leave and so, no sales talk and persuasion. Only then did I find out that my uncle's doctor has called my mum to ask the family of my uncle to visit him as they believe he will pass away today or tomorrow.
And so my whole family went down to visit him. He looked tired, weak and has swollen arms and limbs. When my mum asks him questions he would either response slowly or just open his eyes and look at his surroundings before closing his eyes again. No long sentences just words and short phrases. He look pretty much in pain at times. But I believe he'll make it through today.
It suddenly chanced on me that this is only my 2nd visit since his bike accident last year, where he was hospitalised and subsequent tests revealed that he has other illnesses.
When I first heard of his accident from my mum and that he wanted to borrow money to fix the bike, it angered me because I felt he was always borrowing and not returning my mum's hard earned money. Even his daughter started borrowing from my mum to pay for the hospital bills.
There's a seperate incident when my uncle wanted to be discharged from hospital. My mum went all the way there, helped him collect medicine from the pharmacy and cabbed to his place. The moment they arrived at his void deck, he complained of pain and my mum had to send him back to the hospital. And my mum sms-ed me about it. Still upset over him borrowing her money I was pretty rude about it. Then my mum replied "He's my brother, you better pray he is alright and go visit him"
And so I did. On 31 December 2009, I drove my dad's car and almost got into an accident at the roundabout because I was too focused with the GPS screen. Visited him a short while and bumped into my other uncle there. When I left the carpark I received an sms and not wanting to be texting-and-driving I reversed into the loading bay and so that explains the dent at the back.
Four months later (today), there I am at the hospital again. I never knew how such an accident could lead to something so serious.
And now, the thing that has been on my mind the whole day is that people only treasure the ones around them when its too late.
The man at the hospital. He's my uncle. He used to buy me things like the very expensive roller bag which I loved and used during primary school. But for various reasons, he has been shunning people for the past few years, almost uncontactable. Although I may not have much memories with him but we are still related by blood and I can see how much my mum is very protective and worries about him and visits him very frequently in the hospital.
For being upset with him, I shouldn't. And uncle, although you didn't know I was upset at you, I just want you to know I'm sorry and I will pray for you.
-nIx- @ [[10:18 PM]]
Today has been a really long long day.
Woke up at 10 to have my breakfast and off we go (parents and me) for a facial and massage. Definitely much better than my current one, which I am about to finish the package. Don't intend to sign up for it again anyway.
Well yeah. Now my back is feeling much better and less tensed up. After that we had to leave and so, no sales talk and persuasion. Only then did I find out that my uncle's doctor has called my mum to ask the family of my uncle to visit him as they believe he will pass away today or tomorrow.
And so my whole family went down to visit him. He looked tired, weak and has swollen arms and limbs. When my mum asks him questions he would either response slowly or just open his eyes and look at his surroundings before closing his eyes again. No long sentences just words and short phrases. He look pretty much in pain at times. But I believe he'll make it through today.
It suddenly chanced on me that this is only my 2nd visit since his bike accident last year, where he was hospitalised and subsequent tests revealed that he has other illnesses.
When I first heard of his accident from my mum and that he wanted to borrow money to fix the bike, it angered me because I felt he was always borrowing and not returning my mum's hard earned money. Even his daughter started borrowing from my mum to pay for the hospital bills.
There's a seperate incident when my uncle wanted to be discharged from hospital. My mum went all the way there, helped him collect medicine from the pharmacy and cabbed to his place. The moment they arrived at his void deck, he complained of pain and my mum had to send him back to the hospital. And my mum sms-ed me about it. Still upset over him borrowing her money I was pretty rude about it. Then my mum replied "He's my brother, you better pray he is alright and go visit him"
And so I did. On 31 December 2009, I drove my dad's car and almost got into an accident at the roundabout because I was too focused with the GPS screen. Visited him a short while and bumped into my other uncle there. When I left the carpark I received an sms and not wanting to be texting-and-driving I reversed into the loading bay and so that explains the dent at the back.
Four months later (today), there I am at the hospital again. I never knew how such an accident could lead to something so serious.
And now, the thing that has been on my mind the whole day is that people only treasure the ones around them when its too late.
The man at the hospital. He's my uncle. He used to buy me things like the very expensive roller bag which I loved and used during primary school. But for various reasons, he has been shunning people for the past few years, almost uncontactable. Although I may not have much memories with him but we are still related by blood and I can see how much my mum is very protective and worries about him and visits him very frequently in the hospital.
For being upset with him, I shouldn't. And uncle, although you didn't know I was upset at you, I just want you to know I'm sorry and I will pray for you.
-nIx- @ [[10:18 PM]]
April 23, 2010
Lost in thought. I miss you baby! Time to sleep!
Gosh. Wonder how am I ever gonna wake up early to study tmr without falling asleep :s
-nIx- @ [[4:20 AM]]
Lost in thought. I miss you baby! Time to sleep!
Gosh. Wonder how am I ever gonna wake up early to study tmr without falling asleep :s
-nIx- @ [[4:20 AM]]
Okays nixnix did something new today like... DONATE BLOOD FOR THE FIRST TIME. Hahahaha.
-nIx- @ [[12:20 AM]]
April 22, 2010
Up early (for once in a blue moon) gotta go out and run some errands. :s
-nIx- @ [[10:07 AM]]
Up early (for once in a blue moon) gotta go out and run some errands. :s
-nIx- @ [[10:07 AM]]
So not motivated to study this time round. I guess this stresses e importance of having friends around me who are studying and can accompany me to mug so as to create peer pressure. :s
Wish I can pause time for me to get a clear frame of mind..
-nIx- @ [[1:14 AM]]
April 21, 2010
Grrrrrrrrr. Bothering me like mad!!
-nIx- @ [[10:19 PM]]
Grrrrrrrrr. Bothering me like mad!!
-nIx- @ [[10:19 PM]]
Can't really explain how I'm feeling now. This is weird. :/
-nIx- @ [[4:40 PM]]
April 20, 2010
Seriously. I'm demotivated right now. Not even the library can save me.
Bah.
-nIx- @ [[11:04 PM]]
Seriously. I'm demotivated right now. Not even the library can save me.
Bah.
-nIx- @ [[11:04 PM]]
Super drained. The crash course turned into super duper crash course - revision classes.
My mind's gonna explode. I want an overseas trip so badly after my exams. Malaysia also boleh.
Super sleepy. Guess I'll just fall asleep and wake up earlier tomorrow (hopefully) to study.
Really can't wait till the exams are over so I'll have more timeeeeeeee
-nIx- @ [[12:16 AM]]
April 18, 2010
-cheeky face-
I haven't been studying much... Like 1/2 page the day before yesterday and 15pages yesterday. Hoho. I'm officially 44.5 pages behind scheudle. :S
I know there are a lot of people out there working hard to make ends meet and yet, here I am jobless (and still financially sound on my own) but I am complaining about how tough it is to be a student + baby's such a distraction :p
Studies aside, my life is actually great! I have the car (most of the time) and I get to visit my baby. Hehehe.
Time to sleep!! Study tomorrow. Yes I will be a good good girl.
-nIx- @ [[1:43 AM]]
-cheeky face-
I haven't been studying much... Like 1/2 page the day before yesterday and 15pages yesterday. Hoho. I'm officially 44.5 pages behind scheudle. :S
I know there are a lot of people out there working hard to make ends meet and yet, here I am jobless (and still financially sound on my own) but I am complaining about how tough it is to be a student + baby's such a distraction :p
Studies aside, my life is actually great! I have the car (most of the time) and I get to visit my baby. Hehehe.
Time to sleep!! Study tomorrow. Yes I will be a good good girl.
-nIx- @ [[1:43 AM]]
April 14, 2010
The CFA Level 2 guy sitting in front of me was intimidating hahaha.
Super sleepy now think I gonna have an early night.
-nIx- @ [[10:23 PM]]
The CFA Level 2 guy sitting in front of me was intimidating hahaha.
Super sleepy now think I gonna have an early night.
-nIx- @ [[10:23 PM]]
Past few days has got me into lotsa thought provoking moments. I don't really know what's best for me or what I really want.
Realised that the best way to study is when one is in the most relaxed state of mind.
I seriously need to rethink about what I really want.
Next time I ever sign up for a course I'll make sure I won't sign up for the exams until I'm certain that I'm ready for it. Screw the early bird price!!!
Sigh.
Really sleepy now. But at least I completed 30pages... which was meant to be yesterday's target.. Today's another 30pages. Hohoho.
I have no life.
-nIx- @ [[4:22 AM]]
April 13, 2010
2hrs of sleep was great.. Until I woke up finding myself back to reality. Theme parks n manicures and no trace of studying haha. I wish!
Me want a holiday badly!!
Gonna go out to study later to make up for all e lost time just now.
-nIx- @ [[10:06 PM]]
2hrs of sleep was great.. Until I woke up finding myself back to reality. Theme parks n manicures and no trace of studying haha. I wish!
Me want a holiday badly!!
Gonna go out to study later to make up for all e lost time just now.
-nIx- @ [[10:06 PM]]
Mentally cursing in my head. I wonder whether its the erratic weather. Whatever it is, I don't really care.
Feeling more and more like a home-school student. Except for rich kids who can afford to go out, have fun and screw their studies, how the hell do the normal kids survive all their years cooped up in the house studying?
Think I'm going crazy soon. Zzzzzz.
-nIx- @ [[4:23 PM]]
Msn went crazy don't know why its not responding. Hrms.
On the whole, I'm not surprised. My whole computer is screwed anyway.
I should be studying but once again I'm finding myself aimlessly browsing websites and wasting my time on stuff I shouldn't be spending time on.
Like deleting people off my facebook list whom I don't know. Wonder how they ended up there anyway.
Next up is my msn list.
I think too many days of not studying turned me into a lazy bum.
I really need to buck up but hmm I seriously don't know why I'm working so hard in the first place.
Damn, getting bored with life.
-nIx- @ [[2:10 AM]]
Last day of class. Left at the 2nd break and had a first gathering with my classmates till pretty late.
My sleep pattern is screwed up once again.
And somehow I feel like throwing everything away and going on a stress-free holiday.
Doubt its gonna be stress free (let alone happen). And I've an insane craving for gao tou yu. Hong Kong!!!
-nIx- @ [[1:13 AM]]
April 12, 2010
You know, sometimes its really very pleasant to just allow myself to steer off my "study until no life" lifestyle. (:
Puts me back into the good mood to study.
Miss my baby!
Sleepy now. Good nite y'all xD
-nIx- @ [[12:11 AM]]
You know, sometimes its really very pleasant to just allow myself to steer off my "study until no life" lifestyle. (:
Puts me back into the good mood to study.
Miss my baby!
Sleepy now. Good nite y'all xD
-nIx- @ [[12:11 AM]]
April 11, 2010
Thinking whether I should transfer revision class now...
-nIx- @ [[11:33 PM]]
Thinking whether I should transfer revision class now...
-nIx- @ [[11:33 PM]]
April 09, 2010
Happy girl got to meet up with baby for the whole of yesterday's morning xD
I'm off track for studies now hurhur. Must complete book 2 tomorrow!!!
Super sleepy. Good nite world :)
-nIx- @ [[12:46 AM]]
Happy girl got to meet up with baby for the whole of yesterday's morning xD
I'm off track for studies now hurhur. Must complete book 2 tomorrow!!!
Super sleepy. Good nite world :)
-nIx- @ [[12:46 AM]]
April 07, 2010
Met up with baby at 1am today. Although its just for a short while I'm a happy girl hehehe.
Studied 50pages today! Whee. Had a bit of time to go down to swim too. Wahaha.
Less facebook!!!!! :D
-nIx- @ [[11:58 PM]]
Met up with baby at 1am today. Although its just for a short while I'm a happy girl hehehe.
Studied 50pages today! Whee. Had a bit of time to go down to swim too. Wahaha.
Less facebook!!!!! :D
-nIx- @ [[11:58 PM]]
April 06, 2010
Yvette and our talk about life! Haha. Define happiness. :p
-nIx- @ [[2:11 PM]]
Yvette and our talk about life! Haha. Define happiness. :p
-nIx- @ [[2:11 PM]]
April 05, 2010
Wise words from a wise man.
My classmate said to keep life simple, only then can we make time for trying out new things in life.
For example, if I'm so busy with tuning in to msn and facebook everyday, when an opportunity for me to do something else comes, I'd tell myself I don't have time for it.
Imagine if I cut down on facebook and get the habit going, then obviously I'd have the extra time to try out that something new.
So... LESS FACEBOOK MORE STUDIES!!
Marginal benefit (the enjoyment/social benefit derived from facebook) vs marginal cost (my CFA results at stake).
Wahaha.
-nIx- @ [[11:46 PM]]
Wise words from a wise man.
My classmate said to keep life simple, only then can we make time for trying out new things in life.
For example, if I'm so busy with tuning in to msn and facebook everyday, when an opportunity for me to do something else comes, I'd tell myself I don't have time for it.
Imagine if I cut down on facebook and get the habit going, then obviously I'd have the extra time to try out that something new.
So... LESS FACEBOOK MORE STUDIES!!
Marginal benefit (the enjoyment/social benefit derived from facebook) vs marginal cost (my CFA results at stake).
Wahaha.
-nIx- @ [[11:46 PM]]
I FINISH QUANTITATIVE METHODS. haha. Funny. Was attempting the review questions in the back and then I'm like... Hmm familiar word.. but what's the formula?
Oh great.
Started on Economics. Today will be the first class on economics. Seems pretty interesting. Never read about it before. Lol.
I miss my baby!
Time to sleep!
-nIx- @ [[1:47 AM]]
April 04, 2010
Eventful. Just back from studying but AHHHH my body clock is more than screwed. I need to wake up at 10 tmr to reset my body clock.
-nIx- @ [[5:01 AM]]
Eventful. Just back from studying but AHHHH my body clock is more than screwed. I need to wake up at 10 tmr to reset my body clock.
-nIx- @ [[5:01 AM]]
STUDY ALL THE WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't give up nix.
-nIx- @ [[12:57 AM]]
April 03, 2010
I've got an impending headache.
-nIx- @ [[10:34 AM]]
I've got an impending headache.
-nIx- @ [[10:34 AM]]
I realised I'm not as strong as I'd like myself to be.
-nIx- @ [[2:08 AM]]
I should be sleeping but I just can't get to sleep.
I feel my life slowly slipping away.
-nIx- @ [[1:54 AM]]
Really screwed because I 1. Haven't been in the mood to study 2. Didn't study today.
I want to give up on my studies. I've already paid everything.
Thesis is behind time.
CFA is behind time.
But I'm afraid of failure and with everything that's going on right now I don't know how things will turn out. :(
Don't know how much more I can take.
-nIx- @ [[12:03 AM]]
April 02, 2010
Sitting by the poolside gazing at the moon and the stars.
Reminds me of the time I used to gaze out that window into the sky.
I won't give up without knowing I did my best.. That's just who I am..
Dear God,
I really need a miracle please. I promise to be a very good girl.
Nix
-nIx- @ [[2:09 AM]]
Sitting by the poolside gazing at the moon and the stars.
Reminds me of the time I used to gaze out that window into the sky.
I won't give up without knowing I did my best.. That's just who I am..
Dear God,
I really need a miracle please. I promise to be a very good girl.
Nix
-nIx- @ [[2:09 AM]]
April 01, 2010
So moodless just feel like sleeping my life away now. Time is running out, the exams are coming soon. asdlkfjadlkf. Brain's gonna stop functioning soon.
Really hoping for things to turn out well. I'm well aware of the challenges that I may face in the future but I'm really serious and ready to accept it as a part of my future.
That's the path I'm willing take but I can't do that if I'm not given the chance to..
-nIx- @ [[3:21 AM]]
So moodless just feel like sleeping my life away now. Time is running out, the exams are coming soon. asdlkfjadlkf. Brain's gonna stop functioning soon.
Really hoping for things to turn out well. I'm well aware of the challenges that I may face in the future but I'm really serious and ready to accept it as a part of my future.
That's the path I'm willing take but I can't do that if I'm not given the chance to..
-nIx- @ [[3:21 AM]]
